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February 03, 2007

EARLY MORNING REFLECTIONS

Reaction has been pretty encouraging over the clip I posted on YouTube - I didn't expect that. To be honest with you, I'm not sure what I expected. It has always amazed me at the kind of stuff Camp Freddy has brought into my life - the opportunities, situations and performances that have been the stuff of dreams (at least, my dreams anyway!). On a day to day level, I just work on the next show, making calls, arranging stuff, answering questions, replying to all the emails etc. But when I take a step back and look at the last few years - Strip Club openings, playing on top of a huge structure in the middle of Times Square, Playstation launches, a Nascar show ..... having the honor of performing with SO many names, from Lou Reed, Steven Tyler and Ronnie Wood, to Slash, Billy Jo, Jerry Cantrell, Steve Jones, Billy Idol ...... you have to understand that a little over 12 years ago, I was homeless. Not just struggling with a small substance abuse problem ...... HOMELESS!! Begging on the streets. Somehow I was allowed to crawl out of that gutter and find the life I lead now. And yet even with ALL that incredible stuff going on in my life, I still bash my head against the doors of 'The Business'!! I can honestly say that I love The Process and not the results. Which is just as well, because I push myself every day to work on all kinds of stuff. But I found it interesting enough to shoot a couple of months of it all last year, and will probably do the same this year.

And that is how A LIFE LESS ORDINARY was born. The film people edited an amazing trailer together and then we all sat on it, wondering what to do with it. Its not TrainWreck TV - I'm not in and out of rehab, beating people up and rolling down stairs drunk. So that rules out 75% of all television right now!! Its not an award show or a competition (which is another 15% of on air content these days!!). It doesn't fit into a mould (story of my life right there!!!), so we just sat on it. And eventually I got bored, and put up that clip. So thank you very much for all the positive stuff, guys - I really have no idea what will happen to it, because the reality is that it needs a production company to finish it. But I can keep editing small two/three minute episodes together and throwing them up on the web. So who knows - maybe someone will get interested in just how a homeless heroin addict gets to stand up next to the biggest Rock Stars in the world and play amazing shows, and is still relatively unknown in his own endeavours - or maybe they won't. Truth is, I don't really care. I am however, having a lot of fun being creative with all this stuff. I am the luckiest guy in the world. I should be dead, but instead I get to live this amazing creative life. However did I go from the photograph below (yep - thats me.....dont know how old I am but I obviously knew what I wanted to do with my life!!!!!) to the picture at the top???

Camp Freddy Radio is live again this week, on INDIE 103.1FM or www.indie1031.fm and I believe it will be Mr Sorum and my good self filling the airwaves with our dulcet tones!! Tune in and find out. Last weeks Hip Hop extravaganza with La Coka Nostra is up on the Podcast page in case you haven't looked. Thanks for letting me drone on today ........ actually, you have no choice! Its my blog, and I can do that if I want to!! - No doubt Paul will be recording the show tonight, so more Podcast activity soon. Also, last weeks info about the Camp Freddy Miami show being public was, apparently, wrong!! It is a private show! HOWEVER, they are sending us a few pairs of tickets to give away, and I will do some of that on the radio, and some of that RIGHT HERE, on the web. Once we get the tix, I'll figure out some details and let you know. For now, have a great weekend and see ya soon.

Billy

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Posted by vivelerock at February 3, 2007 07:56 AM

Comments

that's a cute little morrison in that pic! haha. looking forward to listening to CFR tonight. I'm glad Matt will be back with you. Tell Donovan to get in to the show soon.

curt

Posted by: Curt at February 3, 2007 08:54 AM

Love the pic of you as a little boy! Yes you had your dream carved out for you at a very young age! AND you have the added bonus of saying that you are living your dream...not many people can say that! It's impressive that you clawed your way out of a world that claims many lives, not only to be back where you were, but to be better than before. Even more impressive is the fact that you are willing to allow people to venture into that part of your past and you share it with no apologies, disclaimers, or regrets.

Here's my question (which Peebs and I were discussing while we were at the AOA show at the Bowery the other night)....and it's a little off the wall, so be prepared ;-) How do you (collectively as musicians in a band) decide where on stage to stand? I mean it's a given that the drummer's behind the drum kit, the lead singer is usually front and center (though may venture to other parts of the stage and venue), but how do the guitarists and bassists decide which side of the stage is "theirs"? Duff's always been on the right side, Slash on the left, Dave's on the left during TPC but on the right during CF. It seems that most of the time the bassist is on the right, but there are instances where that is not the case. Is it just a comfort thing? Random? Wherever you land?

Looking forward to another installment of CFR tonight and looking MORE forward to the time when Circus Diablo will FINALLY come to NYC! Us easties really miss you Mr. Morrison!

Mary Beth

Posted by: MB at February 3, 2007 09:39 AM

CLASSIC PICTURE!!!! It's you sans the tattoo's and piercings!! I love it!!!!!!

I'm personally SICK of "trainwreck" TV. It's just getting ridiculous now! We Americans are a strange lot aren't we? And even though you may not be THE most famous person (you can still run in 7-11 for milk and maybe get reconized where as Dave gets reconized in a Walmart in the middle of Kansas) the story of coming from nowhere, homeless and with a serious addiction to where you are today is an interesting and inspiring one. Besides....your easy on the eyes too ;-)

Have a great week and I'll be tuning in tonight!

Posted by: Robin (peebs) at February 3, 2007 09:52 AM

CFR with you and Matt is just what I need tonight. You are two of my favorite guys and my spirit looks forward to the lift.

There have been 5 deaths that touched my family this past month. One overdose, two separate accidents involving drunk driving, and one accident that claimed the lives of two young people. How is it that some are taken and some remain? Luck? Perhaps. In your case, I think that you have been given another chance....one that you don't take lightly....for a reason. You never know how the telling of your story might inspire others who need to hear it. In a world full of train wrecks you, my friend, are hope.

Much love and respect,
Bonita

Posted by: Bonita at February 3, 2007 01:14 PM

Hey Billy, I don't really know you more than the few quesions and emails that you have answered for me of the past dew years but reading this past post mate, I surely feel a great sense of pride towards you for what you have down. You obviously deserve it so just keep living the dream.

Have a great night on CFR and I will be sure to b listening in over the web.

Posted by: Simon at February 3, 2007 01:16 PM

A Life Less Ordinary clip was a great teaser! i'll watch! you've been great answering questions & supporting your fans by being true to yourself & your music. i'll be here in the frigid midwest (below zero!) but i'll be listening to CFR tonite.

Posted by: mary at February 3, 2007 03:35 PM

Billy, I just watched the clip again, and again I had goosebumps when it finished~ Here's to the "right" people finding it... peace.

Posted by: Carly at February 3, 2007 04:24 PM

Hey Billy,

I know you write as well. What you have writen is it like the movie?

You have an amazing story to tell. Lets here it via book or film.

Give us some more.

Matt S.

Posted by: Matt S. at February 3, 2007 05:54 PM

Bonita, I'm so sorry for your losses. I lost my son to an accidental drug overdose a little over a year ago. I did everything I could to help him, but you can't help someone if they don't want it. I too struggle with WHY. They say time heals all wounds, but not this one! .

My question to you Billy is how did you make it back? Was there someone who helped you get off the streets? Did you want to get clean and sober, or was it forced upon you at first?

Posted by: Linda from San Diego at February 3, 2007 06:50 PM

My heart goes out to you too, Linda. We are dealing with our youngest daughter (20) and her drug addictions. She moved on to heroin this past summer and seems beyond our reach.

Billy, your methods of survival seem to be of great interest to many. And it's not just survival. It's living. So many people just exist. It's great to see you LIVING your life.

By the way....I'm really enjoying listening to you guys on CFR. Your laughter is good medicine.
~Bonita

Posted by: Bonita at February 3, 2007 07:18 PM

Bonita, I pray your daughter makes it home. A mother is used to making things all better, and it is so frustrating when they won't let us help them.

Billy, thanks for CFR! I tried to call in, but I couldn't get through. BTW the Colts are going to win! I hope I don't end up eating my words. Adam Vinatieri is my friends cousin.

Posted by: Linda from San Diego at February 3, 2007 10:34 PM

Things are CRAISE, that's how you made it? Seems to me it seems to be you are one, ALL about the grit and determinition. Inspiring stuff! Inspiring mofo. Totes!

Posted by: Spencer at February 3, 2007 10:59 PM

Ja mang!!!

Posted by: Spencer at February 3, 2007 11:01 PM

Bonita, Liinda, I'm sorry for your pain. I'm C&S too, and I know for me, when it was at it's absolute worst, I had a moment of clarity. I was going to type out this big ol long thing here, but if you want to talk more on it, feel free to email me. Namaste.

Posted by: Kate at February 4, 2007 10:18 AM

Kate, thank you for your support. On February 9, I will be clean and sober for three years. I have chronic pain, and I was addicted to pain meds. The memory of my son is what helps me remain C&S, I don't want to be a hypocrite. I figure if I can make it through my dads suicide and the loss of my son C&S, I can survive anything.

Billy I hope you don't mind us sharing these stories on your blog.

Posted by: Linda from San Diego at February 4, 2007 12:22 PM

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Posted by: paydayloan at February 4, 2007 01:08 PM

"The refusal to rest content, the willingness to risk excess on behalf of one's obsessions, is what distinguishes artists from entertainers, and what makes some artists adventurers on behalf of us all."
-John Updike

Billy Morrison - an adventurer on behalf of us all!

(that childhood photo is priceless)

Posted by: Caffeinated Sue at February 4, 2007 03:53 PM

Billy, the reason I (and probably lots of us here) am so interested in the film is not for the hope of a trainwreck, it's the positive outcome. Triumph of your spirit over all of the hardships. To have a healthy and happy life now and a good relationship with your family is amazing. It's REAL LIFE, not phony B.S. that is faux-tragic or happily resolved in 30 minutes or less. I, for one, am very glad you made it through to tell the tale and be able to keep creating.

Sue

Posted by: sue at February 4, 2007 04:48 PM

sorry for the double post but I just read the comments and want to send love and positive thoughts to Bonita and Linda...hang in there and hit me up at sue@nin.com if you need to "talk".

Love to you.
Sue

Posted by: sue at February 4, 2007 04:53 PM

Just got back to KC from Chicago from seeing TPC & Tommy Lee. It was awesome!!! Not only the concert but, the city too. First time to the windy city, - 23 wind chill today, that sucked but, everything else was unbelievable! Now, I just have to wait to get CD tour dates & my year will be set, concert wise. Billy, I seriously have like a million questions I could ask you about your life. Maybe I will ask a few every now and again but, you are truly an amazing person on how you have turned your life around and what a productive person, not just for yourself but for others, that you have become. Ok, now for a couple of the questions from the millions that I have, 1. Did your parent do the whole tough love thing during your addiction? and 2. How would you react as a parent if put in that position?

Posted by: Merc957 at February 4, 2007 07:01 PM

Billy, such a beautiful post! Thoughtful as well as passionate and full of soul. Great to see a photo of you from your childhood. I love that you were singing with a mic already, and getting the moves down. And in a strong way, you're back to that child in the photo. It makes me smile tons, and feel happy.
Lisa
xxxx

Posted by: ylais at February 4, 2007 08:11 PM

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Posted by: morgage at February 5, 2007 04:43 AM

Billy,
Just thank you for your open honesty. You have such a story to tell. I hope that you find a way that you're comfortable with telling it. Because so many people want to hear it and stand to be touched by the telling. The thing which strikes me the most is your pragmatism and your survival - you're amazing. I want to know how you turned your life around - I am sure I'm not the only one, but you left so many unanswered questions with that trailer. So so glad for you that you're where you are now not then and it was you who did all this - you worked for it and it's you who makes it keep happening daily.
V.x

Posted by: vixen at February 5, 2007 06:19 AM